Maybe you are and you don’t even know it. That’s how I felt today while doing some grocery shopping. Here’s the story.
I found myself doing some grocery shopping this morning and the first place I hit up was the snack aisle – OK, the “natural” snack aisle, but snack aisle nonetheless. Normally I go right to the produce section, spend most of my time there and then move on. Not this time. I completely bypassed the produce section even though I walked right into it upon entering the store and went straight to the snack aisle. After about 5 minutes of picking up packages, reading labels and filling the cart I asked myself, “What are you doing?? Why are you here and why are you doing this?”
This is the answer I came up with. It was a gloomy, rainy day here. Strike one. I can’t stand rain, especially cold rain. On days like today I just want to curl up and sleep all day, but I have 2 small children, so that’s just never going to happen. Strike 2 came when I realized that I was hungry because I did not eat a proper breakfast. But big strike number 3 came when I remembered that for the next 5 days, while my husband is away on business, I’ll be alone. Not really, alone, alone, but without him. It may not be a big deal to some people, but it’s a big deal to me and I don’t like it. So I was just reaching for easy stuff that I would normally not reach for. In the end I took some time to think about my decisions right then and there, put most of the packages back on the shelves (I did buy a few – without the guilt) and turned around and headed to the product department.
Today was the first day that I was mindful of how my emotions try to control my decisions when it comes to food. I could have purchased all of the snack foods and eaten all of them before my husband gets back home, but how would that make me feel? I would feel disappointed and guilty that I sabotaged myself.
Next time you’re feeling gloomy and you find yourself in the grocery store, take some extra time to ask yourself a few questions before making your purchases. Is this something I would normally purchase? Why am I buying this product? How is this product going to make me feel after I eat it?